Day 4 - Second Day Climbing Ice! Later...

If I want to truly be happy I must throw out all judgement, preconceived notions, negativity and 'should's.' I have to quit thinking anything will be magical or amazing and take it totally for what it is. Ice climbing is hard. I must be the only person in the world who didn't know how hard it would be. I had projected perfection upon it, amazement, incredible breathtaking beauty and of course it failed to meet my expectations. It is hard. And I am doing really really well. Such realisation may be applied to my other life. Fantasies must be dashed before reality can set in. And it's painful. When I'm out in the cold I need to move, walk, run, jump, traverse, image my next run up the ice and forget how cold my toes are. It only brings me down (focus power: this applies to every life in every spectrum). I am just happy that I am here. Relax, mentally, physically and in my heart. The crux is nearly sent. I have much unnecessary tension in my body and center, I need to notice it, relax, breathe, be aware. Transformation...